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2006-05-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

Hee...at home blogging now...totally shagged out..duno why i'm so tired oso...haiz..i must be getting old...

been spending a lot of time hanging out with my two dears...clubbing, ktv-ing, chilling out, eating, eating n more eating...my god...the eating part...haiz...it was so depressing to weigh myself...i've successfully propelled myself back to the horrendous weight i was before i broke up with him...arghz...it's gonna be an uphill task to get myself back down again...die die die...worse still, dear loves to eat the same foooooood as me....diu diu diu diu diu...it's damn horrible la...if one of us has a craving...it's GONE GONE GONE GONE GONE....

hmm...back to working n giving tuition again tom...damn sian...nothing much to look forward to after work ends too...haiz...

aw after reading ur blog, had some thoughts...

i was sad after i read it...coz it reminded me of how much we had shared n how beautiful it was n could have been...but then again, it oso reminded me of how horrible the past 3 years have been, how much waiting, tears, forgiveness, isolation, loneliness i had to go through...n it all can be summed up in one word...BROKEN...yesh...i was just that...totally devasted n broken...it still sends chills down my spine everytime i tink of that hell i was put through..a hell which didn't seem to have an exit sign for me...

yesh...i am getting better now...much much better...n i'm glad that u are happy for me...

i dun deny...i still love u...i dun tink i will ever stop loving u...

but...no more shit for me ar...enuff is enuff...

if the person i love can't love me back...holding on is pointless...

yupz yupz yupz...n one ting is true...all the smiles that i have accummulated during the last 3 years is nothing compared to the tears i have shed...n it is oso nothing compared to the amount of ever ready smiles that i have had now for the past 2 to 3 months...thanx dear...realli realli realli...

ok...gg to nua now..yawnz...not realli in the mood to blog oso...

hope u are enjoying urself in korea...lalalalala

Super Duper Fun Week...

2006-05-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

Hee..yupz..it has been a super duper fun week for me...

let's see...i worked for onli one day, which was friday...whaaa..freaking lazy ar....

Monday, rested at home till i went over to meet jidan...then went down to this ktv pub at IOI Plaza with jidan n tianwei...quite an ok place la...drank lots n lots of hoegarden...which kinda explained why i didnt turn up for work on tuesday...hee...

Tuesday, decided not to work...nua-ed the whole day with jidan n then went to take mc for her...one of my firsts this year...wahaha..doing something that i've neva done before...quite fun...after that, met meizhen n mansur for dinner at heeren's nydc...hee..finally got to eat my grandma goes nutz mudpie...my absolute fav mudpie..yummy!!!! after that, went down to IOI plaza again to chill out with meizhen n heard the best rendition of superwoman by some guy there...nice...Hee...thereafter, went to altivo with jidan to chill out..had a drink n went home to KO...

Wednesday, jidan picked me up from PS and we headed down to Fullerton...decided to nua the whole day there...so whilst waiting for the room to be ready, had breakfast first...hee...my fav meal of the dae....after breakfast, had a series of interruptions coz the internet connection n movielink service in our room was not working...after that was settled, we decided to watch cinderalla man whilst drinking hoegarden....nua-ed again the whole day before meizhen came with takeaway dinner for us...hee...so nice of her..muacks....thereafter, left the hotel at 11 and went home to KO again...

thursday, was too damn shagged to go to work...met jidan after work before meeting the rest of my unimates for dinner at checkers cafe...hee...they serve breakfast 24 hrs a dae..i like...hee...then went ktv with the whole bunch of them...haven sung with them for ages..quite fun....:)

Friday, finally went to work...Joanne wasn't working n Esther left halfway..haiz..but well, i stayed till the end..wahaa...after that, went back to jidan's place to wait for meizhen n sister to come over before we headed down to JB for supper...Hee...i finally got to eat my crayfish....yummy yummy...Hee...sent meizhen's sister back after that before heading to orchard ktv for another ktv session...

Saturday, slept the whole dae...hee...then went to toa payoh with jidan to meet meizhen for dinner at sizzler..freaking full after that then we went down to some place at robertson walk to chill out...Hee...quite ok place to chill out wor...but it was a little hot...left the place at bout 1 plus in the morning...headed home to jidan's place to get passport n bathe n then left for KL at bout 4am in the morning..haha...crazily onz jidan...suggested driving down just coz we were talking bout how nice the food in msia is....

Anyway, yupz, reached KL at bout 6 plus and then we checked into Eastin Hotel, ate breakfast n then rested till bout 5pm...then went out to hunt for food...Ate Indian Rojak (which is damn nice, i like) and went to some char chan teng after that...we planned to eat a lot actually but some places were not open...n when we were done with char chan teng, we were both damn full oredi..so decided to just fark our remaining plans n head back to singapore...left KL at bout 10pm...Hee...

Just reached jidan's place not long ago...yawnz..waiting for her to finish bathing first before its my turn...awwww...so sian...it's freaking back to work again tom...well well well, it's ok..i've had such a fun week oredi..unparalleled...hee...jidan is sooooooo damn onz...

~yawn yawn yawn...bathe time!!!~

Why am i still single?

2006-05-14T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hee..got bored...so took some test...here are the results to why i am stil single...

Mic, you're single because you don't want to slow down

Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?

~lala..hee~

lazy sunday...

2006-05-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hee..yupz...it's yet another lazy sunday at home...

First n foremost, here's wishing all mothers a happy mother's dae...

Got v mixed feelings bout todae..mother's dae..hmmm...it signifies a sad n moody dae for me everytime tis dae arrives...well well well...

anywayz...let's see..yupz i ended up at his place yest afternoon playing winning eleven..Hee..it's been ages...i sux man..totally duno how to dribble liao..n duh of course i lost like 99% of the time...aiyah..wat's new...Hee

n then late in the nite, went to fisherman's village with some fren to drink...soo suay...by the time we got there, hoegarden n coronas were sold out...damn!!!! so ended up drinking carlsberg...stayed there till 3 plus n then we went for another second round of drinks...wahaha...was totally shagged out in the morning...slept a lil while before heading home...

my my my...it's tempting to go to new york...it sounds fun...especially when someone offers u a free ticket, accommodation n food all provided...hmmmm...mayb in december? Hee..i duno...we shall see bout that...

lazed n nua-ed at home the whollleeeee day todae...n of course i ended up eating freaking a lot...let's see, i ate yong tau foo with noodles n kway teow, chicken rice, goreng pisang, corn, deep fried chicken wrapped in beancurd skin, fish nuggets, otah, charsiew, duck, a lot of soup, shepherd's pie, deep fried you tiao with sotong filling, buah keluak n i duno wat else liao...that's all i can remember...Ohhhh ya....there's still the mother's dae cake...

Haiz...n all i do is complain that i'm fat but still eating freaking damn a lot...i'm damn super screwed...

Hmm...someone msged me yest...happy happy happy...he finally was given my number...well well well..too bad he's in a faraway land now...

missing someone sux isn't it...its too much..time realli seems to be crawling by..my my..n there's nothing i can do to accelerate it...sighz..hee.../cook

Nua-ing again now on my bed...in my classic nua position...whilst i'm supposed to tink of wat to do later...would prob end up either chilling or singing..n i guess that means i wouldn't be working tom...wahahaa...well...not that i'm complaining..work is boring man....Hee

kk...i have just emptied all the nonsense that was floating around in my head..it's blank now..except for the emotions that are tied to this special dae n missing someone...Hee...tata

lalala

2006-05-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

Took an online quiz...source provided by ryan...hmm...kinda true...

Results:
***Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating***
Maybe you're looking for love...But mostly you're looking for fun.You could get serious with the right person.For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

Those who got nothing better to do now...can go try out this link:
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

Hmm...nua-ing at home now...maybe later going over his place to play PS2..haven played for a damn long time tho...i sure lose one leh...haiz...

Thots:
I still cry coz of u..but it's a different feeling altogether already...that part of me is quite dead oredi...i tink "sum tam" is the most apt word ba...

Getting damn fat...i'm damn close to reaching my previous record weight...i tink i'm kinda screwed..my appetite is coming back...i wanna jian fei...but i tink now got no motivation to do that sia...

Ohh yest..went to ai qing hai at marina square...OMG!!!! the guy's voice is dammmmnnnn nice oK...i lurve his sheng xian...nice nice nice..i was melting..so i have decided, i will go back again next fri..wahaaa....

after that, went to watch poseidon...hmm...the show was ok la...tiang feels that it's nice...i tink it's ok onli ba..just imagine titanic without the dragginess (erm...is there even such a word?!?! hee)...

now nua-ing at home...hmmm...sat nite..yawnzz...i damn miss jidan again...weird to not see jidan when we've been meeting every day...

~back to nua-ing~

2006-05-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

Me and Ah bet

2006-05-09T16:55:00.001+08:00

Another OBS pic

2006-05-09T16:55:00.000+08:00

N of course, how can we forget to take our OBS gals picture..

2006-05-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

Group Photo at ah bet's place...Heee

2006-05-09T16:53:00.000+08:00

one part of my injury...Hee

2006-05-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

some candid shot taken by kangming

2006-05-09T16:50:00.001+08:00

i'm vulgar even when i sleep...Oh nooooooo

2006-05-09T16:50:00.000+08:00

the little hut that dear jidan was sleeping under...wahaha

2006-05-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

Haha..i like tis pic...damn cute..hee..muacks

2006-05-09T16:48:00.000+08:00

Me n jidan...Heeee

2006-05-09T16:47:00.000+08:00

Me n Meizhen..Bintan Trip..in Week 11 of sch term...:)

2006-05-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hee...got this pic quite recently...i quite like..i tink tis is the best pic i;ve got of us so far...lala..me n ryan..at some pub in tanjong pagar...beg of tis year i tink

2006-05-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

Me, Esther and Joanne..at Zouk..on Esther's Bdae..Hmm..forgive the red face..i get damn red easily so u will see a lot of my pics will be of a red faced me...Heeeee

sat nite..

2006-04-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hee..yesh..sat nite again..went out for the whole day todae...Hee...haven been out in the day for such a long time since i duno when..but mood's pretty lifted up todae..Hee

went to pei dear run some errands...then went to chip bee gardens to eat...ate my small lil cod fish which is Ok...not bad la..but dear's carbonara is niceeeeeeee...hee..but damn fattening sia....

then went down to jurong east to collect moi lenses...by the time i wait for U to take for me, i tink my eyes cannot make it liao la..hee..happy to see gio gio again...then of course, went to take another neoprint again...all my neoprint collections came about coz of gio gio...so she's in 90% of the neoprints that i own..hee..miss her...

then went to eat ice cream at serene centre...hee..nua nua nua nua till time to go date brendan...n was falling asleep during tuition sia...beh tahan...damn tired...Hee

back now...nua-ing around n chatting online....

Hee...going out later...lala....misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss jidan......

Leading a normal life

2006-04-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

Been busy being guai dan these days...

normal day begins by going to work, then to tuition, then home, nua on sofa and then sleeping earli...

Hmmm...got my strat results back..HENG i didn't get a C...was soooooooooo scared....

Hmm..other than that, nothing much happening in my life rite nw ba..just leading a normal life day by day...

well well well...

Hee..tis is such a contentless blog entry...i shall stop here...

~Missing someone sux~

Thoughts

2006-04-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm...nua-ing in school now at pick n bite whilst waiting for dear to finish work...

told gio gio that letting go doesn't mean u dun love the person anymore...it just means that u have accepted the fact that tings are gg to be the way it is already...

tis is probably wat i feel now ba...

do i still love him?

yesh of course i do..with all my heart n soul...it seems that nobody else is gg to take this space that he has occupied in my heart...

will i forget him?

No i wun...i neva will...but i'm happy that we had such wonderful memories...6 years worth of memories...unforgettable...

do i still want him?

i would be lying if i said i dun...but i have accepted that it will neva be...so i guess in a way, that part of me has died after more than half a year...sum tam oredi...it's dan coz it is numb from all the pain of wanting him so badly...

am i happy now?

yesh i guess i am...altho there's nobody in my life now...but i have gained a very special fren...my jidan...wouldn't noe wat to do without her...if not for her, my world would still be in pieces...pieces that slowly gnaw away at my very existence...

coz of her, i have learnt to smile again...

coz of her, i have learnt to be kaixin...

coz of her, i have learnt that frens will always be there for u..

coz of her, waking up every morning isn't that bad a torture anymore...

coz of her, i actually am starting to look forward to every new day...

coz of her, i can actually learn how to rebuild my collapsed world...

n coz of all these, i wish my jidan will be foreva kaixin...Hee...u have given so much to me so unselflessly as a fren...u duno how much u have realli helped me...Hee....

i will always be there hanging around wheneva u nid me..this is my promise to u...one that i will keep..n like wat u said...i will onli leave if u dun nid me around anymore...Hee...

all unhappy tings are DISALLOWED for u k..hee...thanx jidan...

malay malay malay

2006-04-15T10:55:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go..yesh...but it's oso a paper that i have to realli study for...damn...i regret taking malay...haiz...

promised dear that i will be super hardworking these few daes....hmmm...yea yea yea...i will b super guai dan n stay at home n study this whole weekend...

nothing else much going on in my life rite now...

walked away....i tink i've done it....

sum tam...i'm almost there....

moved on....working on it....heeeee

awwwwwwww....i miss my jidan....heeee....

P A I N F U L D A E

2006-04-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

hmm...y is everyone around me soo broken?

besides my own pain, i can feel so clearly the pain that my close ones feel...n coz i understand how horrible the pain can be, i'm sooo xintong...

haiz...

been too mani daes recently where it's been damn bad....

cheer up ya everyone....

wat doesn't kill us together does makes u stronger tom even if ur whole world has collapsed...

Rainy Sunday...

2006-04-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

It's a rainy rainy sunday...

my mood seems to change with the weather...

somehow i feel, it's been raining inside my heart ever since the dae he left...

the clouds will clear everytime i'm with frens or when i'm kept busy...with downpours threatening everytime i see something that triggers some memories...but when frens are around...it seems like there's some invisible umbrella that stops me from getting wet....

but

when that umbrella is gone...I am drenched again...from head to toe, inside and out...

n i'm left there shivering in the cold...willing the rain to stop soon....

where is my own umbrella.....

i have to find it soon....

P A I N

2006-04-02T02:20:00.000+08:00

y isit all coming back to me now....

mayb i shld keep myself damn super super packed....

till i have no time to think...

just when i thot i'm beginning to "sum tam" then everyting hits me right in the face again n the nightmares are coming again...

n i'm beginning to get afraid again...afraid afraid afraid....

Yea!!! its finally over....

2006-03-30T18:33:00.000+08:00

Yupz yupz yupz...i have finally cleared my strat...it was one of the most agonizing past few days..bia-ing and finishing it just in time to hand it up...totally had to overhaul the whole damn 25 page report..phew...nvm..it's over...heee

n i finally clocked my 10 hrs of sleep....hee..it has been months since i've gotten that...ever since i broke up, have had serious insomnia...so now that's gone...hopefully, i will be able to get rid of those stoopid eyebags under my eyes...

hmm...got some other tings to bia finish to end off this term...but as of todae..no more work for me..i've had it...reading n typing till my eyes are popping out...

hee...PLAYTIME

Back here again...

2006-03-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

Was lazy to change blog so decided to heck n just blog here again..suddenly got the blogging mood again...

hmm...miss my laptop..it's been gone for 2 weeks already and there's still no news...n the fujitsu care centre was closed when I called just now..so i shld just remind myself to call again lata...

am i feeling better now? I duno..yes n no i guess...

in return for the whole world that I have lost together with him, I have gained a whole new world and two new very good frens who teng me damn a lot...am happy to have them in my life..tink i'm damn blessed in that sense...

But

it still feels empty...I've gotten used to not having him by my side...i think...I've gotten used to not waiting for his sms or call...gotten used to a whole new lot of things that used to revolve around him...

every little thing still reminds me of him...every cell in my body still tells me that I dun wanna let him go...

but every part of my logic tells me that it is better this way..that it's good that irene is the one who's taking all his nonsense now and not me...that i dun have to keep on sacrificing my own life, my own frens for him....

so have i let him go yet? i duno leh...it still hurts damn badly...i'd rather not have the memories coz they are realli a constant reminder of what i have lost...what i will neva have...the soo mani things that we went thru together...

but i oso noe that i cannot let the people around me who cares a lot for me down...

n so...hmmm...sum tam lor...half a year later, mayb i will look back n laff at how silly n stoopid i was? hmmm maybe....i duno...

thanx to dear who has been constantly pei-ing me...i tink without her, i realli would be down in the dumps...the pain that was sooo unbearable has been made bearable...the dreams that were sooo horrible has been replaced by silly dreams...the fear of sleeping and waking up alone has also slowly been made much better...the fear of wanting to wake up when i dream of him leaving me has also gone...the fear of waking up to pain has also been taken away....

hee..kaixin kaixin...altho the pain still refuses to go away...but i'm glad that at least i am still able to smile n be kaixin...

closing time..

2006-02-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

sori peeps...i'm closing this blog to cut off all contact pts...

yesh i've been irritating...keep changing blog add...bt bear with me ya...

will keep u guys updated of my new blog on msn...:)

tired...

2006-02-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

i dun feel like trying anymore..it's sooo tiring...

i'll give myself another deadline...

3 mths....if it lasts 3 mths, i will cut off all contact n leave for china n forget everyting there...

n i'll just stop being there for u...

coz for this past 6 mths, i have neva stopped being there...have neva stopped loving...have neva forgotten all my promises to u...

damn...why am i such a weakling....

end of term break...

2006-02-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

term break ended too fast...time just flies by when u are having fun...damn...

been doing the usual stuff...clubbing, ktv, gg out...i'm putting on back all my weight again...damn sianz la...

had a wonderful wed out...it seemed like everyting seemed so right once again...but it flew by n i had to return back to reality...return back to the empty shell that i am hiding in now...

went to colour my hair on friday at Action Hair in Paragon...Charlene's pretty good at her sectioning...so if anyone wants to do highlights, can consider going there to do...bt it's pretty expensive tho...normal highlights + dye is bout 300 plus...n if the hair mask n treatment is thrown in, it costs bout close to 500...

Love without reason lasts the longest...hmmmz....i agree in some ways...but when one realli asks oneself why u love someone...u will realise that the reasons are endless....coz it can just be summarized in just one simple word...

wat do i love bout u? EVERYTHING

n i shld stop being fan jian n follow every single move of their r/s, coz it brings me down to hell every time i noe something new....

~shen me dou wang le, wang le wang ji ni~

Rest is over...

2006-02-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

ok...i've had my one day of rest...now it's time to bia again...but i still feel sooo damn shagged...haiz...

got retailing quiz tom...damn blardy 12 chapters....sooo mani la....luckily it's mcq nia...

was dreaming again last nite...i thot the dreams bout him had ended...but now it's all coming back to me again...

dreamt of him, n his whole family...

wellz...memories....dreams....it all seems sooo far away now....

will i ever meet someone like him again? someone whom i'm willing to love like dat?

skeptical..haiz...lidat lor...

ok...i shall quit being so depressing and all..

got a lot of work to finish up....

just realised..i haven gone out to play this week..tsk tsk tsk....that's no good....haha

shall bia retail now...n maybe...maybe....maybe...at nite can go out???? haha

damn...duno where to go take photos for CV

~jiu suan di er ge ai qing zai lai ling, zai wo xin li,

neng gei wo xing fu de ren, wo zhi dao shi shang zhi you ni~

Recharging...

2006-02-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

Not gg to work again this week...coz i nid the time to recharge, catch up on sleep n prepare for test n project meetings during the weekend....sooo fiaking tired manz....

soo mani tings on my mind...

n i tink kangming might be rite...am i attracting the wrong kind of people? hmmmz...mayb it is indeed my lifestyle that's the root cause of it...

been tinking a lot these few daes....been having dreams...

been missing him...

n when i was at ktv the other dae...i sang the song "wo deng ni" by rene liu...n i realised....it's gonna be 6 mths soon....n after 6 mths, i shld realli just treat him as someone who is just a passerby in my life....there's onli so long one can wait...

n i realised....i do feel happy for him la...coz he seems happy...n he no longer calls me for lil tings anymore...not like in the first few mths....he has realli moved on....i just hope she treats him well...

some ppl are irritating me to the core man....arghz...tak boleh tahan....

n some ppl are just simply bo chup towards me..haiz...

ok...gotta gear up to do bit of studying for retail liaox....then mayb lata can go out...wahaha...

~you mei you, ceng jing hua yi, wo shuo wo hui wang ji, zhi shi zhong hao yi~

Happy Valentine's Day...

2006-02-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day to all...Hope all my frenz out there are happily spending this dae with their loved ones...

As for me, I'm oso gg to spend it with someone i love...someone who means a lot to me...n someone whom i will be with for the rest of my life...i just hope she will feel better after tonite...

gg ktv lata...wahaha....so have to bia n prepare for strategy presentation tom...kaoz...damn stressed la....

aw...been thrown around like a volleyball todae...initially wanted to spend a quiet v-dae alone at home...n i hate self-pity...but after being thrown around todae, i actually started to feel damn sad at not having a valentine...but then again, why would i need a guy ya?!?! i am perfectly fine without one..if i can leave him n survive, there's nothing i can't get thru....

looked at her friendster profile todae....it stated the following:

"His: Foreva Love...Her: Only One"

N i felt super insulted...

So insulted that they are the same songs that we once "claimed" for our own....

Foreva love...haha....a whole pack of shit....

Only One...hopefully she will be ur only one ba...

okok...just wanted to ramble on n grumble...coz i'm not feeling in the best of moods...esp when everybody around starts getting flowers n holding hands n being sweet n all....

On this dae, hope everyone around me is happy...everyone everyone everyone...:)

back to blogging...

2006-02-13T15:13:00.000+08:00

yupz...haven been blogging for some time now....

yawnz...fiaking tired now...been playing the whole weekend...n i've found a new playmate...wahaa....Su San...i tink she's mad...whoeva tinks I'm crazy n keeps going out to have fun...look at Su San..n one will realise how tame i am...

wanted to come home to do some work before meeting matthew lata at 7pm...but decided otherwise...so i'm going to ktv...wahaa...better now, if nt, i'll definitely not have the time to do so later in the week....weeks 6 & 7 in SMU is crazy....the amt of work!!!! i wonder how 24 hrs is ever enuff for anyone....

v-day tom...love's in the air....

but not in mine...wahaha....

this v-day is gonna be special....veri special....coz i'm gonna stay home n spend a quiet day n evening all by myself....my first v-day alone since erm...i tink it was 14..haha...

wanted to just agree to go out with some people...but no point la...it defeats the purpose of spending valentine's with someone who's not the valentine in ur heart...

yawnz...desmond's taking a looooong time...tink i'm falling asleep soon....

~thinking of u~

boxing dae...

2005-12-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

last nite met up with meizhen for dinner at serangoon gardens...n we discovered this lil hangout place called liquid kitchen which has very a pretty nice ambience with lotsa eye candy for guys...haha...the drinks are pretty not bad as well...next time i must bring dear along with me...hee

todae met up with shyan n co for dim sum buffet at mirama hotel...food was pretty ok..but it took quite a long time to come...n it was pretty cheap as well...each of us paid like 16 bucks? yupz...hee....then after that, left to meet gio n niki at chinatown...n left dear alone to go home...sori yar dear...hee...i noe we have veri little time together liaox...n i miss ya as much as ya miss me...we'll just have to start getting used to spending less time together coz of all our other commitments but u noe u will always be in my thoughts.. :)

aw...sang at kster with gio n niki...i shld have opted for the sofa room instead...wanted to try the tatami room this time coz i have neva been to one before..but regretted...hee...coz the floor was pretty hard n all of our butts were suffering...ohhh...n niki's voice....one word - amazing...hee...nice nice nice....thoroughly enjoyed myself with them...shld come out together more often....ohh n thanx for the pressies yar gers...love u guys...

after ktv, niki left to join her parents for dinner...so me n gio went in search for her bikini...went to harbourfront first...but it was sooo expensive...like 89 bucks for one bikini???? so we decided to go down to far east instead...n it was much much cheaper....so in the end, she bought two coz the salesgirl tempted her by giving her a discount...wahah....but ok la..it was reasonably priced...

after that, whilst waiting for her dad to come pick her up, we decided to go take neoprints...hee...n we were rushing coz her dad was about to reach..n in the end, i tink the dad got angry...oopz...coz we werent done by the time he reached....well well well....

aw....back home now....gonna bathe n then sleep soon...

i miss my dear...if only he was here with me....

xmas

2005-12-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

i've had a crazy xmas...hee..n now i'm totally wasted...supposed to go for callie's baptism n my aunt's xmas party but i'm having a damn bad hangover now...totally screwed...wahaha....

went to ktv with dear n his frens last nite...dropped by derek's fren's pub for a while n then went down to este at bout 3 plus...by the time i left este, i was totally wasted...luckily i had dear with me...with him around, i feel so protected...hee...he practically had to drag me home n settle me into bed, take out my contacts n get a change of clothes for me....thanx a lot darling...

right now, recuperating...haha...if i'm betta later would prob watch narnia with my cousins, sisters and of course my dear....

thanx for the present darling...it was damn sweet of ya...hee

looking forward to meeting gio and niki tom...hee...so exciting...n of course excited at meeting shyan n co tom as well...haven seen these guys for ages...sobz....

yawnz

2005-12-21T18:01:00.001+08:00

me n dear...taken at partyworld....when we met up to celebrate ah bet's bdae...

2005-12-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

moi sisters...deborah, judith, elaine...n the one next to me is my extra cousin...can't rem y my youngest sis is not in the pic

2005-12-21T17:59:00.001+08:00

ok...me n dear looks damn gross here...wow liaoz...we din even noe my sis was taking pics...ohh aw i was eating baked rice at NYDC..n of course, that was followed by my fav Grandma Goes Nuts mudpie..yummy

2005-12-21T17:59:00.000+08:00

another pic taken at cousin's wedding.....i quite like the decor of the restaurant

2005-12-21T17:57:00.001+08:00

meizhen...hee..my bestest bestest friend....i'm praying for ya every night ya...u will get thru this...:)

2005-12-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

me and judith...dun we look alike....of course, discount away my chubbier face la....

2005-12-21T17:55:00.001+08:00

me n darling...taken with hp...trying out to see how it appears...it's damn blur sia

2005-12-21T17:55:00.000+08:00

another blur pic from hp...

blog blog blog

2005-12-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

yea..haven been blogging...am feeling bored now..so shall blog to pass time...

nothing much going on in my life now ba....well, dear is back...n he treats me well...like his lil princess...so i'm happy...

been spending a lot of time with meizhen as well...glad to have tis fren of mine...regret that i din find out the facts properly years ago...coz have been missing her for the past few years...so now, i have to make it up to her..hee..

met up with gio to take neoprint...hee...nice nice...but i still sux at decorating...she too pro liao la..just look at the amount of neoprints she keeps in her lil precious moments box...it's damn a lot...wahaha...

okok...nothing much le....shall post pics instead..lazy to write...

xavier....he joined us when we met up to celebrate yin's bdae..hee..i tink he's damn cute...n he can also fully self entertain himself....

time passes so fast...hee...ohh n as he grows older, he's looking more n more like yin yin..haha...

so cute....i wan moi own kids too!!!

Mother and son...

Dun u feel that they look damn alike??? haha

esp the face shape, eyes n smile...hee

The whole gang...

From left to right, germaine, yiping, meizhen, me, yin yin, jeremiah, xavier and donghai...

hee

Moi darling...i tink he was too bored in my room...coz he always had to wait for me either to say prayers or to prepare to go out...hee...sori dear..muacks

took this pic in the train on the way to chinatown to meet Tianwei...

hmm...i still cannot see why this is dear's fav pic leh...can someone enlighten me?

soo stoopid

2005-11-26T20:58:00.000+08:00

wahah..i just did the most stoopid ting...

i blogged...

BUT

realized

i blogged in the wrong blog...

onli realized it when i published my blog n then saw that it led to moi old blog...

aiyo..how dumb can i get...blur liaox..tinking of too mani tings..haha

lazy to blog again...so shall just leave it as it is...

miss my dear...

2005-11-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

hee...i'm finally blogging again...

awz..not working todae...met up with meizhen n eddie last nite...had an enjoyable time with these two good frenz of mine...waha....went to violet ktv at sgoon gardens...the place was kinda sucky...ok la...v long neva go also but most importantly, it has the song that i want...liu hong hua's "wo yi rang xiang xin ni hai ai wo"...nice song nice lyrics...*melts*

after ktv went over to meizhen's new place...her sofa is damn comfortable i swear...just sat there watching ayumi's whole collection of mtvs...haha...trying to entertain myself whilst eddie was falling asleep n meizhen went down to get something from her fren...after that, watched this korean movie...it's damn nice n farnie...meizhen prepared tissue paper for me as well..haha...emotional sucker i am..keep crying when i watch sad shows...well, ain't a woman entitled to such privileges..haha...

i miss my dear....poor him...i duno whether to be angry or not...told him to be careful when he's in new zealand le...but now, haiz..got into accident n even lost his hp so he's uncontacteable till he's back in aust...he injured his leg tho..i wonder how he is now...n the fact that i can't be with him now to take care of him makes me all the more frustrated....i hope he's alrite n hopefully the trip will still be able to go on...tho i wonder how all of them are gg to carry on with skydiving...but it's soo expensive..it's a shame to not go for it....

sighz...dear...must contact me the moment u can ok....i miss ya n am worried...sighz...

lalalalal...

2005-11-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

just finished doing up my parts for MR...hmmz...will be going to school later at 330...arghz..i hate sch...i'm spending all my time there till i realli dun have a life...that's damn sian....whenever i step into sch, i get super stressed...dammit!!!

dear is still sleeping...kinda worried for him coz it seems that he's oso gonna fall sick oso...wat's more, he's having his exams now...n i can't do anyting for him as well coz i'm not with him...sighz..i wish i could have done more...

been keeping in touch with zheshan...have been feeling rather guilty these daes coz i hurt him...but well, when i looked at my old blog entries...dear is rite...there's nothing more that i could have done for him or our r/s...n i blif dear hee...coz i noe dear will treat me well...just like a normal couple would would be like...

hmmz...gonna start on my svc mktg project first...have to rush it out by tonight..sianz...tom's a public holiday n of course, being an SMU student means that it is nt any holiday at all...have to be back in sch from morning till night again....arghz...pls let it all end soon...i'm sooo tired oredi....

staying at home...

2005-10-31T18:29:00.000+08:00

lalala...i'm sick of staying at home...fever's bit betta..hee...since i'm soo bored at home...it just makes me wanna keep on blogging n bloggin n irritating everyone out there...wahaha....

well...lemme see...dear totally knocked out liao coz he slept v little last nite to bia for his paper todae...so i tink he's pretty much in dreamland now..prob snoring away like a pig...hee....

i tink i'm getting sillier each dae...y ar...hmmm....i oso duno...but i realised being silly is actually kinda fun...haha....behaving like a lil kid is good..makes me not wanna grow up....

something's wrong with my infrared...can't send pictures from my hp to my laptop...so i tink it's time for me to start saving and get a digi cam man...taking pics is kinda fun tho i onli realised this after 23 years on earth...wahha...

ok...gonna do some research first...then lata will prob go over to meizhen's new home...for gathering...n to disturb her..will turn her house upside down...haha....

took this pic at home just now...

people seldom see me with specs...

took this for dear act..so that he wun get too shocked when he sees me in specs...coz i tink i look like shit with specs on...

sianz...

i tink i'm getting old...haha

sick...

2005-10-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

yawnz...yesh i'm sick AGAIN...tink i'm pretty weak...always falling sick...tink the stress for the past few daes caught up with me...n ok, i kinda admit that i'm not realli good at taking care of myself...haha...nvm lar...next time moi dear will do that job...wahahh...

wanna rest..but then i've been in bed for a pretty long time...n i'm sick of staying in bed...so i might as well be up doing some work....

dear's having his paper now....i realli hope he will do well....coz i feel damn guilty...coz of me, he realli hasn't been putting in the effort he shld be...wat's more, he's aiming for his second upper...sighz...tsk tsk tsk...

hmmm..everyone's asking me bout dear...i noe it is a little too sudden n it seems that i've been changing bfs rather too often recently...but tis time it's different...previously, the one before dear...it isn't like wat it is with dear now...he was just a companion to me...n also to prevent me to be soft hearted n go back to zheshan....

i'm someone who realli cares bout how my frenz feel...i duno y...so i hope that i would be able to get everyone's approval...coz i noe i will be happy in this relationship..he's just someone different...hee...n i noe he wun treat me the way zheshan did...so frenz...dun worry ya...hee

lazy lazy sunday...

2005-10-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

took a short nap just now...i haven had naps in a looong time...i feel so pampered..haha...

woke up at 9pm n talked to dear...n we just put down the fone...sighz...tink he's pretty stressed up too coz his paper is tom and he has to bia for it tonite...n i feel guilty...coz he has been spending a lot of his time talking n chatting to me instead of studying or even sleeping...wellz...hmmm...hope he does well for all his papers this term....

hmmz...was just tinking of wat jolyn said to me yest..she was saying no matter how good a person is to u, if u've got no feelings for that person..then u'll start to find it irritating...n yar...it's true..it applies to kelvin (the previous one..not zheshan)..hee

as for dear...hee...i love it when he's sooo sweet to me....hmmz...i'm like oredi planning my whole itinerary for dec...tinking of places where we can go tog n tings that we can do together....arghz...i realli can't realli wait le....i haven had tis kinda feeling for a damn long time ever since i met zheshan...hee....

dear asked me todae if we were still tog 2 to 3 years down the road, will i mind if he wants to settle down...hmmmz...i'll be more than happy to actually...haha....i wanna settle down earli too...

okok...i've oso gotta get back to work liao...have oso been talking to dear too much that i'm lagging behind in my work...hee...

miss ya dear!!!

2005-10-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

moi dear...hee....

can't wait to see u...will be counting the daes...:)

first posting...new blog...new beginning

2005-10-30T15:14:00.000+08:00

its a sunday afternoon...i haven had the luxury to laze around at home lidat for a damn long time...boy it feels good man...to just be able to slack around...

just read some disturbing article....apparently the fact that singapore is about to execute this australian guy is creating a big hoo-ha over in australia...hmmm...i'm worried bout my frens there...n of course moi dear...

ok..for frenz out there who are reading this n unsure of who i mean by dear..let me do a short intro..haha

i met dear bout 5 years plus ago...at the same time that i met zheshan...however, obviously, i ended up with zheshan...dear was too shy la..he didn't even try to talk to me la...haha

aw..we started contacting each other thru msn a few months back..just when i was having a lot of problems with zheshan...nothing happened then...we were just normal frenz...n i felt that he was a pretty nice guy n someone comfortable to be with...

however, last week, tings progressed in a way that i did not expect it to...we were chatting soo much that i realised that feelings were starting to develop...n i was shocked...coz my heart was still yearning for zheshan...so to be able to walk into my heart n get me to open up was in my opinion, a formidable feat...

on friday, i decided to make a decision...coz i realised that i didn't want to lose dear just coz of other stoopid stuff...hence, i let go of two people in my life...n one of them is zheshan...someone whom i realli dun wan to hurt...but i figured this way out would be better...there was nothing more that could be done to salvage our r/s aw...so we'll just leave it as that...wonderful memories...

and as for dear...hmmm...he is the onli one after i met zheshan that has made me feel like a little gal once again...haha...it's like i'm kinda realli quite happi...BUT..he's in aust at the moment n will onli come back mid dec...that's a super long wait sia...hmmmz...but i belif it will be worth it...

hmmm...I'm realli realli reall v tempted....should i go over next week? arghz...

aw...dear..jiayouz....hee

ok..decided to post some pics...haven been posting them for a long long time...

this one's taken at purvis street on 8th oct, sat..we were having dinner at his place called clarity's cafe or sthg la...

celebrating mine n yiping's bdae....

all of them in this pic -- they are my good frenz from primary & secondary school